GIGGLES are a girls best friend

hehehe

well....

my bestest friend just wrote

that he's

fallen for me

....

that's a thinker right there

not a bad one though

the kind where you sit for a while

and think

with butterflies

in your belly

and his face in your mind

then you think

i really don't want to date him

because this sounds exactly like the whole

...michael...

situation

yeah, that's what i'll call him

we sat there thinking about what would happen

if we were to break up

we said we'd be friends forever!

how can you be friends with someone

who crushed your heart

and mangles your spirit

and wipes the smile from your face

every time you see them?

how could i lead myself into another

...........

trap

like that again??

sure we still talk

but it's SO painful

i'm just afraid that if anything happened

that we'd end up in the same situation

but then again,

david and i both

have this fear

of the future.

we think that

if we don't find anyone now

we'll never have a chance later

.....

am i going too far with this??

hhmmmm

you know what?

screw the aliases

i have feelings

(strong feelings)

for

CHANCERY

DAVID

BROSAN

and

GARRETT

MICHAEL

EFFIN

RUDD

screwed my whole life over!!!!!!!!!

.....................

there

out

ANYWHOOOOOO

so yesterday i sang at wallace again

and saw nathan

it was a little weird

cause his mom still hugs me and

tells me she loves me

but he didn't listen to me sing

which i thought was weird

and that was pretty much it

he did

however

ask about the letter

and i said i didn't get it yet

so

i think we're in the green on that one

(you know,

i suck at golf.

i don't even know if that's the proper usage of that phrase)

here's my predicament

i really like my bestie

(might even love)

my most recent ex is a douche

i confuse myself easily

i talk to myself

all my besties are boys

cause they don't confuse me as much

peace

xoxoxo