my metaphor

this is a passage i read in

New Moon

by stephanie meyer

it describes my whole

"situation"

about

me-juliet

him-romeo

and my almost too good to be true best friend-paris

i thought about juliet some more.

i wondered what she would have done if romeo had left her, not because he was banished, but because he lost interest? what if rosalind had given hi the time of day, and he'd changed his mind? what if, instead of marrying juliet, he'd just disappeared?

i thought i knew how juliet would feel.

she wouldn't go back to her old life, not really. she wouldn't ever have moved on, i was sure of that. even if she'd lived until she was old and gray, every time she closed her eyes, it would have been romeo's face she saw behind her lids. she would have accepted that, eventually.

i wondered if she would have married paris in the end, just to please her parents, to keep the peace. no, probably not, i decided. but then, the story didn't sat much about paris. he was just a stick figure ---a placeholder, a threat, a deadline to force her hand.

what if there were more to paris?

what if paris had been juliet's friend? her very best friend? what if he was the only oneshe could confide in about the whole devastating thing with romeo? the one person who really understood her and made her feel halfway human again? what if he was patient and kind? what if he took care of her? what if juliet knew she couldn't survive without him? what if he really loved her, and wanted her to be happy?

and...what if she loved paris? not like romeo. nothing like that, of course. but enough that she wanted him to be happy too?

i don't really know if this makes any sense whatsoever

but

it should to

maybe two people

me

and him

...so...

i hope this explains some things

if not any

xoxoxo